No seriously, fuck you RJ. I've wasted so many tears on you, it's amazing that I still have water left in my body. You know what, my friends are right. Maybe it's just not meant to be and God has got bigger plans for me. This is the third time I've been denied the chance to enter RJ, God must be telling me something right? It's really not worth going to school with ugly puffy eyes from all that crying. Like Tiffany said, I can be the big fish in the small pond. I can't believe it took me this long to realize how masochistic I am. Why does my passion have to be one that has hurt me physically and emotionally countless times before? Track and Field, you are one selfish sport.

Which is why I have decided to drop Track completely and join CJC's ODAC. I am not even joking, here. I am done competing in the same domain that I have been in for the past 9 years. I am fucking sick of going through the same routine and seeing the same few faces every year. Fuck RJ, I am so totally loving CJ man. I had so much fun today and I know that I can fit in and survive b/c everyone there is just like me! Their personality types, their sense of humour, the way they carry themselves and they way they just love to have fun. I made many more new friends today and the OGLs are frickin' funny but yknow I couldn't laugh as loudly as how I would have done in Cedar b/c everyone would just stare at me like I'm deranged and then I would long for 4S to be there to laugh loudly with me...BUT I can laugh as loudly as I want as of now BECAUSE LIYIN YEO IS OFFICIALLY A CJ GIRL NOW!!!!! I AM BEYOND HAPPY!!! :>

I know JC's gonna take some getting use to but I hope all my friends are having as much fun in their JCs as I am! But srsly, Shar, Ani and I have to constantly remind ourselves that 'We're no longer in Cedar' and we can't scream and dance in the canteen anymore, or lift our legs up to tie our shoelaces or whack each other's boobs because we are always in the presence of guys. And after school today, Ani + Shar + I decided to change into our CJ shirts (b/c we are unloyal to Cedar like that) and we were walking to TPY interchange @ 8pm and we were making super alot of noise and acting all retarded when suddenly we saw this huge group in front of us AND IT WAS ALL OUR OGLs!!! We were wearing our CJ shirt so fuck our lives right and I was the one walking in front and Ani + Shar being the awesome friends they are right, decided to run away without telling me. Until all the OGLs noticed me then I decided to turn and scream, "Am I supposed to run away?" and then we all ran away like nooby chickens :(

And omg yknow the guy in my school with the nicest swishy hair on Earth? Well yeah, that bastard child went to cut his hair and now it's not swishy and soft anymore. I was seriously v heartbroken this morning okay :'( But it's alright because I have learnt to move on and now I've got this OGL as a replacement eyecandy b/c he's srsly damn cute and funny. Just saying -shrugs-

& please stop telling me that I'm Fighter Syu and all that because honestly, I don't even know what I am anymore. I am perfectly contented being numb right now. In fact, I have decided to be numb for the entire 2011. But one day, I am going to make RJ regret for not taking me in.