Cedar Jumper, CJC Odac-er
I like dinosaurs, jellybeans, robots and girls.
Never regret anything,
Because at one point, it was exactly what you wanted.
Sometimes dreams are the only thing that keeps us alive ☆
No seriously, fuck you RJ. I've wasted so many tears on you, it's amazing that I still have water left in my body. You know what, my friends are right. Maybe it's just not meant to be and God has got bigger plans for me. This is the third time I've been denied the chance to enter RJ, God must be telling me something right? It's really not worth going to school with ugly puffy eyes from all that crying. Like Tiffany said, I can be the big fish in the small pond. I can't believe it took me this long to realize how masochistic I am. Why does my passion have to be one that has hurt me physically and emotionally countless times before? Track and Field, you are one selfish sport.
Which is why I have decided to drop Track completely and join CJC's ODAC. I am not even joking, here. I am done competing in the same domain that I have been in for the past 9 years. I am fucking sick of going through the same routine and seeing the same few faces every year. Fuck RJ, I am so totally loving CJ man. I had so much fun today and I know that I can fit in and survive b/c everyone there is just like me! Their personality types, their sense of humour, the way they carry themselves and they way they just love to have fun. I made many more new friends today and the OGLs are frickin' funny but yknow I couldn't laugh as loudly as how I would have done in Cedar b/c everyone would just stare at me like I'm deranged and then I would long for 4S to be there to laugh loudly with me...BUT I can laugh as loudly as I want as of now BECAUSE LIYIN YEO IS OFFICIALLY A CJ GIRL NOW!!!!! I AM BEYOND HAPPY!!! :>
I know JC's gonna take some getting use to but I hope all my friends are having as much fun in their JCs as I am! But srsly, Shar, Ani and I have to constantly remind ourselves that 'We're no longer in Cedar' and we can't scream and dance in the canteen anymore, or lift our legs up to tie our shoelaces or whack each other's boobs because we are always in the presence of guys. And after school today, Ani + Shar + I decided to change into our CJ shirts (b/c we are unloyal to Cedar like that) and we were walking to TPY interchange @ 8pm and we were making super alot of noise and acting all retarded when suddenly we saw this huge group in front of us AND IT WAS ALL OUR OGLs!!! We were wearing our CJ shirt so fuck our lives right and I was the one walking in front and Ani + Shar being the awesome friends they are right, decided to run away without telling me. Until all the OGLs noticed me then I decided to turn and scream, "Am I supposed to run away?" and then we all ran away like nooby chickens :(
And omg yknow the guy in my school with the nicest swishy hair on Earth? Well yeah, that bastard child went to cut his hair and now it's not swishy and soft anymore. I was seriously v heartbroken this morning okay :'( But it's alright because I have learnt to move on and now I've got this OGL as a replacement eyecandy b/c he's srsly damn cute and funny. Just saying -shrugs-
& please stop telling me that I'm Fighter Syu and all that because honestly, I don't even know what I am anymore. I am perfectly contented being numb right now. In fact, I have decided to be numb for the entire 2011. But one day, I am going to make RJ regret for not taking me in.
(8:59PM)
When will I ever wake up from this nightmare?
I really love CJ's school anthem, it's really catchy. It's one of the many things that I love about CJ. I had a blast at orientation today b/c my OG is damn fun!!! (Unlike Ani's OG who are all damn kental and she had to make friends with mats instead) and I made lots of new friends like Kimberly and Clara (not as hot as Clara Poon or Kimbo) and Nicholas Joseph Ow from Cat High and Aakash from Barker. His name is pronounced as Ah-Cash and he said that his nigga rapper name is Double-A-$. Do you get it? He must have gotten his inspiration from Ke$ha or something. And he's really damn funny b/c when he first saw our OG, he looked around and said "I'M THE ONLY INDIAN HERE!" hahahaha.
And during icebreakers we were playing Blow Wind, Blow and our OGL said "Blow wind blow all those who have Facebook" and so I ran damn hard towards this China scholar from VS but he refused to budge and I was like "Why aren't you moving? What! You don't have Facebook? Which rock have you been living under? Seriously? Cannot be la...Move leh... " and I spent like one minute screaming incredulously in his face about how he needs to keep up with technology and I kind of forgot that he was from China so he most probably didn't understand half of what I was yelling at him lolz. And oh! I saw this guy with the nicest swishy hair on Earth, it's even nicer Hyunseung's hair and I couldn't stop staring at his soft swishy hair and don't bother asking me if he's cute b/c I was too busy staring at his hair to notice his face.
"Mona Lisa,
I'd pay to see you frown."
I suddenly just remembered what Kimbo said the other time when we were stargazing at 3am. She said that a twinkling star is actually a dying star. So it struck me that all those times we sang 'Twinkle Twinkle Little Star' when we were kids, we were actually commemorating an innocent star's death?!? THAT IS JUST SO SAD(ISTIC)!!! Many many unhappy smileys.
Anyway, I am beyond stoked to go CJ with Anisiah, Lee, Sharianty & Steph tomorrow. Even though I went down to RJ today to hand in my appeal form & I'm crossing all ten fingers of mine that I'll get accepted, I'm pretty sure that I'll love CJ and enjoy my two days in it like crazy (Y)
Pee-ass : Hogwarts, get on with technology, plz. Your stupid owl never came. Just saying.
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Where the fuck is my school tie? Where the fuck are my school shoes? Where the fuck is my fucking nametag? I was so excited and pumped up to start JC and now I don't even know where the fuck is everything and my room looks like it just got robbed b/c I seriously rummaged through all my cupboards and drawers urgh. Don't be surprised if I go to school naked tomorrow b/c I just can't seem to fucking find anything.
In about 7 hours, all O Levels 2010 graduates will receive their fate for the next two years. I am leaving my bedroom window open tonight. Why? Because unlike all you common muggles who'll be waiting for that oh-so-important text at 8am tomorrow, my fate's coming in by owl. Don't worry, I'll update my Twitter as soon as I get my hands on my Hogwarts letter, don't you fret! (Gurl, calm yo titz)
Also, my friends make me laugh b/c trust them to think that my training ends at 7pm and having me unavailable for my own birthday surprise yesterday. But I know how much my friends detest Cedar & they won't step foot in there for no good reason, so the very essence of them coming down all the way to that hellhole meant the world to me. My love for them is beyond words (Y) & also, today is Hanan's birthday. She is my favourite bangla best friend. We had loads of fun at Katong's Kbox today b/c we're all singing sensations like that.
WAZZUP EVERYBODY WE'VE GOT A SITUATION RIGHT HERE IT'S MY BIRTHDAY AND IMMA PARTY LIKE I'M SNOOKI ON DRUGS ☺☆☮✿☾❤Δ
(CLICK IT)
Thank you, God.
Thank you, God.
The Ballad of Mona Lisa - Panic! At The Disco's newest song.
(Get on with the programme, sista.)
& I am addicted to Jersey Shore. Help.
(THIS IS A VERY IMPORTANT EDIT, I AM DAMN EXCITED NOW)
& I am addicted to Jersey Shore. Help.
(THIS IS A VERY IMPORTANT EDIT, I AM DAMN EXCITED NOW)
Hello friends, meet my new baby (click it) ♥ Thank you so much Mummy, I had wanted this phone for so long and now that I finally got it, I promise to be a good girl and I won't fight with you or leave my room to be messy or be lazy or eat everything in the fridge, leaving no food for the family or stick insulting messages on my bedroom door anymore. I'll study damn hard, use my indoor voice at home and control my temper. I'll be so frickin' perfect, you won't even know what hit you. But yknow, I'm not gonna use this phone just yet b/c I kinda made a promise to God that I'll only start using it when I... (secret part here). My seventeenth is beginning to be fucking awesome blessed.
Hi gaiz these are the shoes I want to get for JC (which starts next Thursday in case some of you have forgotten)
& Hi these shoes cannot be found anywhere in Singapore, so... FML moment much?
& also Hi if you're an ant and you're alive and running all around me, I hope you're reading this because I want you to know that you have no chance of surviving. I kill ants like how I breathe oxygen. Stop breeding on my study table, mfckrs.
Fucking great discovery : Belly buttons are not really buttons.
JUST WONDERING - IF UNICORNS DON'T EXIST, HOW COME WE KNOW HOW THEY LOOK LIKE??????
If you thought you were talented, look at me.
Yezs Iszh canzsh speakzxsh Schweizerdeutsch. (I'm assuming it is Schweizerdeutsch la)
Was really happy during training yesterday b/c I found out that I've still got 'it' for my high jump. After an 11-month hiatus, I was beyond glad to know that I do not have to start from scratch b/c my arch and my technique have never left me -cue happy dance- Anyway, went to pig out at Swensen's Ice Cream buffet with Nat and Sarah R Stanley after that! :> I seriously think it's damn worth it b/c you can go for as many rounds of ice cream as you want, there's like endless choices of cakes, cookies, fruits and toppings and there's waffles and pancakes and the mix-in thingy and unlimited supply of whipped cream and there's no time limit, don't you get virtual satisfaction just from reading this? GO AND TRY IT. Sat in there for 3 hours talking about the most retarded things ever and laughing until our abs (literally) hurt and we thought we were gonna upchuck everything we just ate.
(How come we spent 3 hours in there and didn't take a single picture of us?) About half of th empty plates were mine. I ate the most but must make sure that I ate to my money's worth right! I bet if Lee were with us, this whole picture would be HALF of everything she ate in total >:) Oh, Sarah and Nat have deduced the fact that I can't go for dinner dates with guys b/c I'm one serious messy eater what with my food flying everywhere and chocolate sauce dripping down my shirt but OH LOOK at the plate with the banana on it, coming from Sarah lil' miss clean perfect eater, huh that gray slob was once a perfectly good cheesecake okay. Gross man. And yknow Nat and I felt super guilty for bringing Sarah out on a Wednesday b/c she had school the next day (her O Level year somemore). She should be at home studying instead of following her seniors into Pull and Bear and Bershka. We're seriously like vacuums sia, we have no school :(
On the flipside of things, I really wished my parents would stop treating me like a little kid. Despite me turning seventeen in a few days time, they still don't perceive me as being mature enough to control my own life. Blogger is way too public for my emo rants so yes, thank you LJ.
CAN YOU SEE IT???? CAN YOU SEE OUR ABS????
Cause we ninja like that!!!! This calls for a Snail Bump :>
Anyway, glad that I'm going back to training tomorrow as well b/c I need to burn off the Ice Cream Chefs that I had with Alex just now (fucken awesome btw). Dropped by her house & a flood of Sec 1 and 2 memories overcame me. Like how Tammie, Anisiah and I would always go over to her house every week to play Metal Slug/ House of Dead/ Silent Hill/ WWE on her PS2 and we would always attempt to bake cookies but they always fail & when we actually did try to throw the cookies against the wall, they didn't break. And there was one time Ariel, Tammie, Zhi Xuan, Lena, Anisiah and I played water at her front porch and we were screaming and flooding the whole street and didn't stop until the neighbours yelled at us. Dayum, how I wish I had a blog in Sec 1/2 so that I can re-read it now and reminisce all those epic times and laugh at how noob and innocent we all were last time.
♡
Went for my first training yesterday since Feb 2010. That's almost a year now. No matter what will come out of it, I'm really glad that I'm running and jumping and laughing again. I love my body the most when I'm training. Plus, Nat Wong (Ninja) came down to accompany me and only with her can two hours feel like two minutes :> Sat in the middle of some ulu space in PP eating Tau Huay under the stars after training and ninja-ed our way up all the way to the top of the spider web. We're 17, mind you. But I guess only with my Ninja Percy can I still do immature stuff like running in front of the toilet mirror just to see our abs (Y)
I believe that everyone's life is like a Sine Graph. You have troughs (lowest point) and crests (highest point) and you are like the particle yknow, so everyone goes through the same feeling, just different situations. I'm so glad that the the choices and decisions and actions that I make are finally making me happy. & since we are on the topic of graphs, I just want to say that I have never liked the Cosine Graph b/c it looks like a vijayjay to me.
Why were you so upset with your O's results? It's actually pretty good! :>
I think it's time I told my story.
It's like a template dream for every Cedar Jumper to get into RJ, b/c of our coach, our seniors etc etc. At least that's how I see it. And that's how I feel. I had always dreamed of going into RJ when I hear amazing stories about it from my coach and Jumps seniors. & after training at the campus a couple of times, I fell in love with it. Plus, it's the top institution in Singapore. Not much to hate, is there?
I spent over a year working hard and setting my goals towards RJ. I had no back up plans. About a year ago if you asked me which JC I wanted to go to, I'll say "RJ." "...and?" "Only RJ." I wanted to do whatever it takes to get in there. In Feb 2010, I had a knee injury which denied me from competing in Nationals. That was a real big blow to me b/c it foiled alot of opportunities for me such as a medal, recognition, scholarships, edusave and most importantly, my DSA into RJ. I mean, why would they accept someone who's capabilities they do not know of? I got rejected and it still bums me till today.
My seniors and friends advised me to try sports appealing into RJ. However, they said in order to make my appeal more solid, I need to get a single digit raw score for them to take me in. I knew that 6 points was impossible for me, b/c even I knew my limits. All I aimed for was a single digit. Not even the best single digit. Just a single digit. My room is like a closet shrine for RJ. I wake up every morning to see RJ's school motto and crest pasted on my wall and just like how propaganda works, it kind of got induced in me. Live, breathe, think RJ.
All my friends, especially those who got worse than me for O's, don't understand why I was so upset with my results when it's actually not that bad. You tell me, when the faith, belief and hard work that I've put in for more than a year doesn't reflect in my results, how can you expect me not to be? It's not about the results. It's about everything that leads up to it. And at the end of it, I'm only so close to achieving it yet so far. I was really v depressed as I didn't think of a back up plan and I felt pretty lost when I realized that the only plan I had backfired.
& the worst part of it, my friends might even think I'm selfish cause I didn't spare a thought for them when they're disappointed & depressed as well and they think I'm just being arrogant b/c they got worse than me. I'm sorry but the first time I got denied of living my dream, it took me about 6 months before I got over it. And now that it happened AGAIN, even now as I'm typing this, I have no idea how long it'll take me before I'll actually snap out of it.
Everyone has their own stories to tell. And this is mine.
It's like a template dream for every Cedar Jumper to get into RJ, b/c of our coach, our seniors etc etc. At least that's how I see it. And that's how I feel. I had always dreamed of going into RJ when I hear amazing stories about it from my coach and Jumps seniors. & after training at the campus a couple of times, I fell in love with it. Plus, it's the top institution in Singapore. Not much to hate, is there?
I spent over a year working hard and setting my goals towards RJ. I had no back up plans. About a year ago if you asked me which JC I wanted to go to, I'll say "RJ." "...and?" "Only RJ." I wanted to do whatever it takes to get in there. In Feb 2010, I had a knee injury which denied me from competing in Nationals. That was a real big blow to me b/c it foiled alot of opportunities for me such as a medal, recognition, scholarships, edusave and most importantly, my DSA into RJ. I mean, why would they accept someone who's capabilities they do not know of? I got rejected and it still bums me till today.
My seniors and friends advised me to try sports appealing into RJ. However, they said in order to make my appeal more solid, I need to get a single digit raw score for them to take me in. I knew that 6 points was impossible for me, b/c even I knew my limits. All I aimed for was a single digit. Not even the best single digit. Just a single digit. My room is like a closet shrine for RJ. I wake up every morning to see RJ's school motto and crest pasted on my wall and just like how propaganda works, it kind of got induced in me. Live, breathe, think RJ.
All my friends, especially those who got worse than me for O's, don't understand why I was so upset with my results when it's actually not that bad. You tell me, when the faith, belief and hard work that I've put in for more than a year doesn't reflect in my results, how can you expect me not to be? It's not about the results. It's about everything that leads up to it. And at the end of it, I'm only so close to achieving it yet so far. I was really v depressed as I didn't think of a back up plan and I felt pretty lost when I realized that the only plan I had backfired.
& the worst part of it, my friends might even think I'm selfish cause I didn't spare a thought for them when they're disappointed & depressed as well and they think I'm just being arrogant b/c they got worse than me. I'm sorry but the first time I got denied of living my dream, it took me about 6 months before I got over it. And now that it happened AGAIN, even now as I'm typing this, I have no idea how long it'll take me before I'll actually snap out of it.
Everyone has their own stories to tell. And this is mine.
HAPPY BELATED SEVENTEENTH,
KINKY KIMBO! ♥
Went for Kimbo's birthday party last night where everyone was just being super high and wasting alot of marshmallows. Tian Qi and I made the awesomest pasta sauce ever btw☺. Dearest Kimberly, you are beautiful and smart the way you are, don't ever look down on yourself. True friends do more than cook amazing pasta sauce for your party, true friends stay for life <3
Crystal Castles is playing in Singapore this very minute and here I am at home, blogging. Like this is a serious fuck my life moment you have no idea of the intensity of this fuckery.
Pee-ass : Miss Begam doesn't want me and Lee to go CJ b/c she's scared we'll party and get pregnant -.-
Lepaking at Marina Bay MRT station like banglas, eating WanWans....
.... which were truly hot.
This was quite some time ago when I was still working at Burberry and they all gathered at Marina Barrage just cause it was near my workplace :') MB really is prettier at night what with people flying kites and stuff. Yknow, we were really sad that we couldn't buy a kite cause it was srsly damn expensive, like 50 plus altogether. Chin Hui, faster upload all the other photos!!!!! >:(
& today I went to meet Zu, Shar & Mar at our secret lepak place in town. And I borrowed my Mummy's pumps today but they hurt like crazy fuck and I couldn't take the pain so.... I took them off and walked around town barefooted. Not even kidding, I walked into Topshop, New Look, crossed the roads of Orchard Road with my mum's Christian Louboutin in my hands. & if one day you ever wake up in the morning and go like "Oh, let's walk in Ion barefooted today!", DON'T! The floors of Ion are very cold. Just saying.
I'm trying to make 'grunge' happen. Like I'm so grunge for walking around town without my shoes on b/c who else in the world with a right mind would do that?!
Syu's wise words #01 : "If you're in pain, then don't continue being in pain, DO SOMETHING ABOUT THE PAIN LA ASSHOLE."
I have finally come to terms with my results and hey I guess I kind of forgot that I'm Syu. I'm not some mopey shit ass give-upper, I'm a fighter. Depression, tsk it does these kind of things to you. Oh, an I only finally opened up my JAE Form A today and I was pleasantly surprised :> Anyway, I surprise even myself sometimes (It's an Aquarius trait) & I think I want to go to Catholic JC. I know, I used to make fun of it all the time, saying stuff like how I'm going to be Seventeen & Pregnant if I go there and all that, but I really liked it when I went for their open house with Lee and Leena yesterday. My brother gave me some good advice the other day and Imma share it with you, "When you go to a school, you have got to feel the vibe before you know that you can survive in there" and CJ, holla I totally felt you. But you all know which school has the Number #1 spot in my heart, right?
Everyone said that LJ is like an online Chamber of Secrets. It's so private that you can spill all your dark secrets into your LJ log without anyone ever finding out. My Tumblr is like that for me, but the only difference is that it's not private at all. Go figure, my friends xoxo
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OMG do you know that Matt Belamy (Muse front man for you noobs) got Kate Hudson pregnant?!?!? Like wtf CONDOMS MATT, CONDOMS!!!!!!!!!! :O I guess he has a Plug In Baby now hehehehe. Okay, that sounded funnier in my head, sigh.
SYU'S LIFE LESSONS LEARNT
- When your seniors tell you that you don't have to study for O Levels, they're lying.
- When your teachers convince you to drop your sciences so that you can get an A1 for Combined Science, they're lying.
- When people tell you that you'll get an A1 for your pure subject, they're lying.
- It's impossible for 6 pointers to try and cheer you up and say stuff like "It's okay if you're not as smart as me, you're still smart." We cannot be on par my friend, you honestly don't know how I feel.
- (Apology accepted. I'm sorry I wrote it in the first place. Good luck in Hwa Chong! :> )
- When people say that even if you fail that subject in both Prelims but you can still get an A1, they're lying.
- When teachers tell you that you can do it, they're lying. They just want 9.0 MSG.
- Next time, don't bother having expectations/goals/plans, so that if you don't meet them, you'll just be numb.
- It's okay for people to show off their A1s and 6 points, humility, respect, selflessness & loyalty are what's important.
- No matter how hard you prayed and you feel like as if God's not listening, don't ever mock your faith.
Got home from 4S class chalet today after having the entire SCDF training centre for 3 days 2 nights and even though things didn't go exactly as planned, it was definitely a great distraction ♥
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Did last night really happen? I guess it did b/c even though my eyes and head hurts, my heart hurts more. I couldn't sleep the whole of last night b/c your words kept on playing in my head. I promised to change, and I will. It's going to be a whole new different Syu now. I feel like I'm losing myself and it's the worst feeling ever. If yesterday night was any indication of how my 2011 is going to be, I'll be miserable the whole year. But please know, I'm really sorry.
HELL(O) TWENTY ELEVEN.
♥ THEM TO NO END.
Funny how my first friends of 2011 just HAVE to be ACSI guys.
Do you know of the dude on America's Got Talent that impersonates Britney Spears? He performed at Clarke Quay's Countdown Party!!! He's really v hot and totally looks like Britney. I think his boobs are even bigger than mine. & there was one time his wig came off, funny as hell.
Really, really hope that 2011 will be a good year but I think it'll be pretty hard to top 2010 :> Oh by the way, I think people should stop trying so hard to be a pai kia b/c the ones I know of are failing v miserably. You are not cool ACTING like you're so drunk or wasted b/c I actually have friends who have REAL tattoos, REAL piercings and REALLY get drunk and pass out by the sidewalk. Stop showing off b/c if you're trying to make me (of all people) jealous, bb it ain't working. Please just go back to your books and periodic table. I find you cooler that way.
Just saying.
